What I have are some very good "go to" lenses which I know well enough to choose between based on circumstances and intended usage (for RF: CV 28/1.9 Ultron, M-Hexanon 28/2.8, M-Hexanon 35/2, UC Hexanon 35/2, M-Hexanon 50/2, Elmar-M 50/2.8, Summilux 75/1.4). I also have a bunch of other lenses (some expensive, most not so much) which I haven't used so frequently, some for cameras I haven't used often.
What I want is time to use them, to get to know them and work out how to get the best from them. While taking photos I actually like.
I'm just about to get that time, as the project and contract I'm working on comes to an end. Unfortunately, I also need to pay bills, pay for food etc. which means it won't be that long before I need a new job. (Really not that long: I haven't fully recovered from my last period without work.)
Given the difficulties and stresses of looking for work, while theory has it that I'll have the time I want for photography, practical experience tells me I won't be in the right psychological state to use it well. Then (I hope!) I'll find a job and so not have the time... Around and around it will go.
What I need is a lottery win, or a rich (and generous) uncle I've never heard of. One's as likely as the other.